The Ugly Truth

    
  One reason I created this blog was so that I could write a little something every other day about whatever was currently going on in my life. I love The Hopkins Family Fore blog, but it's becoming difficult to recall every funny story that happens and actually have the time to write about it. I'll still continue to write for both, but this blog should allow me to post more frequently.
  I thought I would kick off my first real post by revealing one of the biggest secrets about motherhood that most people don't understand (unless you're a mother of course).  Are you ready to be blown away...here it is: I don't always like being a mom; In fact, I dislike it more than one would think. You may be saying to yourself "But why Kris, you are so good at it" (sarcastic laugh to myself)...I know I’m good at it, I’m not going to lie ::rolling my eyes:: but it is hard work. Maternal instincts come naturally, but the ability to share your life completely with someone else takes a little shit load of work. Just like with a marriage, it takes some getting used to. It is hard to constantly be needed, and ironically it is very isolating. I feel strapped to my children sometimes, they don't allow me the freedom I once had and I feel disconnected with the person I once was. After a few years I finally realized that I am a new person now, I can either choose to embrace the 'new me' and get on with my new life or I could sit and reminisce about my so called glory days. Once I accepted that my  glory days are ahead of me, Motherhood became exciting again.  I still constantly struggle with being a mom. There are no breaks, especially now since I stay at home, and it's a high pressure job.  Seriously, I have two little lives in my hands...two lives that need to be molded and shaped so they can be exceptional women and good standing members of society...talk about obligation...   
  I love my children very much, which is maybe why it's so hard for me to admit that I feel like I’m struggling to enjoy this parental privilege. And I do believe being a parent is a privilege...any schmuck out there can be a "uterus donor", but it takes a lot love and an unselfish heart to be a mother...loving your babies comes easily...but liking them all the time takes work.

This is real life people...

  For all of you who didn't spend countless wasteful hours on Baby Center during your pregnancy, SAHM stands for Stay At Home Mom. For nine months (2x) I read and commented on the debates between SAHM & FTWM (full time working mom...duh). They battled over everything including: breastfeeding vs. bottle feeding, Ferber vs. Sears, co sleeping vs. crib, circumcision, gender preference, crazy mother in laws, and cloth diapers. But amongst all posts of different ideas and what to expect when expecting, I never read anything giving me insight into what motherhood is actually about...
  In my new Blog I will share my TRUE feelings about being a mom...I will say the things that other moms are too scared to say out loud (or write for that matter). I want for other moms to know that what they are feeling is normal and natural (yea right, natural if you're a crazy person). Motherhood is not all about homemade cards and hand picked flowers; those are just some of the many things that make it all worth it. I hope that I can help other moms, whether it be with a laugh or with a sigh of relief...because despite our acronyms, we are all still MOMS first and foremost.